Sunday, 1 November 2009



this picture makes me cry.
kor kor i really miss you.
when will God answer the prayer?
pls come back...

i still think of u each and everyday.
i dont wanna let go
but everyone around me says i should forget it.
i still wanna be friends
but i cant force things my way
wish u all the best darling,
fly away and forget me...
confuse by the word separation

Saturday, 31 October 2009

i want to dance!
but not just for anyone.
i want to dance for God.
God is prompting me to dance right now, he gave me all the moves i need.
oh thank God.
i should really start working on the musical skit dance thingy. ha
and i got tuition!!!
i feel so excited!
hahah, i really want to improve.
"faith without deed is dead"
so yea im working hard now to see the fruits of OUR labour later on.
alos parakletos is here to help me, whom should i fear?

you broke my heart once too many times.
even if my heart could be fixed,
it would never be prefect again.
i cant give anyone a pure heart ever again.
cos the scars u left on me are too deep.
i wish i could say, yeah no problem lets get out of each other's life.
but i cant' cos i treasure friendship way more than u do.
i guess we are even now.
cos i hurted u and u hurted me.
so no more.
i want out!
is friendship really that hard to achieve?
i will leave only becos i care for u.
even if it hurts me, i will still do it for u.
thats how much u mean to me.
wish i could say u r my world.
ur everything to me.
yet it all fall on death ears.

my chains are gone
im been set free
my god my saviour
has ransomed me
and like a flood
his mercy reign
unending love
amazing grace

Friday, 30 October 2009

The Wait Poem

by Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I plead and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said,"Wait."

"Wait? You say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
"Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

My future and all to which I relate,
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to Wait?"
I'm needing a 'yes,' a go-ahead sign.
Or even a 'no,' to which I'll resign.

You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply.

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting . . . for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
And He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me,
When darkness and silence are all you can see.

You'd never experience the fullness of love,
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

The glow of My comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask,
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

You'd never know should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But oh, the loss if I lost what I'm doing in you.

So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see,
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still "WAIT".

camp was _____(fill in yourself)
dragon boat was fun!
amazing race was awesome!
bash night was not too bad!

friendship:
i realised I'm not a very good friend.
I'm not supportive enough for my friends,
and i care too much for myself.
well, i believe everyone still have their good and bad points.
and what a good friend can do is tolerate and give constructive criticism to help each other improve.
i may not be the prefect friend, but i try my best:)

k this sounds so cliche, but just felt i needed to type down my raw emotions.

Sunday, 25 October 2009


i cry out to u oh lord,
just like how King David cried out to u.
how much do u want me to bear?
why do u want to test my faith?
when u know I'm weak?
i see the devils surrounding me,
they are too overwhelming for me to bear.
they laugh at my lack of faith.
they grab my hair and every single part of my body.
trying to pull me apart and tear me down.
rescue me oh father!
hear my cries!
just like how u heard Israel's cries to u.
listen to my prayer.
I'm down on my knees,
begging for forgiveness and mercy for my sins.
convict me oh God,
for every sin that manifest in my body, my mind, my soul and my spirit.
make me pure and clean
so i may stand righteous at the altar.
heal me yahweh raphah!
i do not want to walk down the valley of darkness alone.
i do not want to fear the devils, instead i want to fear u!
for my flesh is weak but my spirit is strong.
in every outcome i praise u.
just like how u helped me overcome retention,
may u help me overcome this obstacle right in front of me.
in jesus name i pray,
Amen!
SPA IS GONNA KILL ME SOON!!!!!
hahas

hmmm,
went to ben church today.
fun and nice:)
i like the worship there.
gave me goosebumps
and i felt the holy spirit presence.
totally cool.
ppl there are very friendly too
especially the guys and the girls( elizabeth and zhiting i think)
hahha
i seem to be able to rmb names
yet i cant put the names and face together.
LOLz
might visit there again.
cos its in a lang i understand!!
ENGLISH!!
never loved a language so much before...

ok back to chionging for SPA

dearest father, may u bless me with wisdom and knowledge to understand the question so i may do well and may glorify ur name. AMEN!

Saturday, 24 October 2009



let go mirabel!
forget it....
someone pls brainwash me

POOL IS SO FUN!!!! <3<3<3<3<3<3
the crush are dying away,
is that a good thing?
i think so.
but ivy says i might revert to my 'old ways'
hmmm, i rather not crush on anyone anymore.
feels like crushes are always one-sided.
leads to nothing at all even if i wish it could be more.
gets my hope too high
that when i fall into reality
hearts are being broken.

cell was fun today.
made me really reflect.
ALOT.
words.
our tongue can build ppl up with our words,
yet with the same tongue we curse and swear.
how can we praise and the same time curse?
it is not right...
its like contradicting ourselves.
the troubling thing is,
no matter how hard u try,
watever u say would be remembered for life by the person
be it a hurtful remark or a negative remark.
as much as u try to forget it,
it just stays in our head.
no matter how much u do to amend for ur mistakes,
it doesnt really change anything.
thats where the saying," whats done is done"
yea, we can say sorry and forgive the person.
but thats all we can do.
so important to do:
tame ur tongue:)

to all ppl who i had hurt before,
pls forgive me.
really am sorry if i said somthing nasty...

to someone: thank you:) u did something to make my day. and im really sorry. i dont know how many apologises i had already said to u, but i just cant get rid of the guilt in me. i feel i owe u big time. also knowing the fact that ur friends told u to do something to me, yet u being so nice didnt take any action. just make me feel like a witch.ha. i accepted u out of so many wrong reasons, and decided to leave it becos it was so selfish. maybe u can say its like making up for a mistake i commited. still, the scar is there. only time can heal it. and its really too bad for me, that i didnt appreciate u in the first place. wasting both urs and my time. now that i starting to fall for u, its kidda too late? feels like god is punishing me for my mistake. oh wells... and i have not got over u... thats bad. nevermind. go and enjoy urself with ur friends especially someone. i dont really want to care abnout it anymore. just 1 thing, some hurting me by doing something(u know wat) if u say u haven got over me yet. u by doing that, jus makes me feel that u are trying to annoy me. totally not funny... LOL

Aaron, Ben, Remus, Pete TALK TO ME!!!!! IM TOTALLY BORED HERE. ENTERTAIN ME ESPECIALLY AARON AW! HAHAH! MISSING U GUYS....:(