you have no idea how hard it is.
don't you dare think that i don't want to help you with the task and curse me with all that nonsense.
i don't give a fucking damn about what your opinions are on me for not "helping" you.
your lack of patience, stupid bloody rolling eyes, and irritating tone you have in your voice don't deserve my attention at all.
stop the "i don't know" and stop acting like the whole world owes me something.
thats called steps on being a BITCH!

Lacey and Neil contemporary, time by mia micheals

did you really mean what you said that day to me???
cos if you are, your are not trying hard enough.
either that, or i just expect too much i guess.

try...

its been quite a while since i posted.

updates are,
1) i passed my chinese!!!
thank God! and my beloved chinese teacher as well for all her help.

2) i lost something again.
its the 2 time, why am i so forgetful???

3) prelim 2 have started.
honestly, i am very stress about it.
kept falling sick because of stress.
its especially very frustrating that 20points is now a extremely hard task to reach.
i cry about O's almost everyday.
its like in 51 days time...
totally unprepared.
i still need my 20points to get in NYJC man.
darn its hard.
especially u know nuts about ur science and math.
oh God please carry me through!

On the bright side,
after O's there are so many things i can do
1)join ballet classes
2)contemparary dance classes
3)back to gymnastics!
4)church camp:)
5)genting trip with my beloved dancers
6)hiphop classes
7)choreograph more dance!
8)get a job at SDT probably
9)volunteer at childcare centre or SPCA or hospital??? maybe
10)prom
11)...

so many things to do!
i can't wait after 12nov when the clock strucks 9am:)

But after O'level results, life would be boring again.
either JC or poly or Dance?


Sometimes, whatever was said in the past doesn't really matter because people change, good or bad.
never knew people could hold grudge and anger over something that happen because of a little misunderstanding years ago. tsk...
"do not let a pebble behind you, trip you"
sometimes, when bad things happen in the past. you just gotta forgive and not blame others. A simple sentence, I'm sorry, please forgive me. may seem like it doesn't really help the situation but this very sentence is meant to give closure so that both parties and get over it and move on.
i just don't quite understand the point of bringing up the past to bring about unhappiness for both parties...

I finally realised i am not looking for a guy who can fill my empty heart with superficial love.
But, rather, i searching for a brother who can lead me.
A brother who is a good example for me to follow.
A brother who can protect me.
A brother who can shower me with 'brotherly love'.
A brother who is christ-like.

Am i suppose to find that brother in Jesus?
Or does that person with such character really exist?

Oh God, its such a struggle.
It feels like the world is collapsing on me.
Studying for Olevels is hell of a struggle!
especially for me, since my L1R5 is like 27.
yea shocking....
and another struggle only God u know.

well the 1 year deal is left with another 5 more months.
i thought i got over you, but its harder then i thought.
And this few months, i realised how unprepared i am for another r/s.
oh God, fill me with your love.
for only your love can fill me up fully.

May God bless all who are taking their Olevels this year.
To God be gloried!