prelim now...
well i give one word to describe it, TERRIBLE!!!
eng was ok
chinese left oral and LC. surprisingly this are 2 papers that i can fail. weird.
emath was ok. praying for a2
amath left p2. i hope ppr2 is easy. but i doubt it. pass i will be very happy already.
chem hahaha screwed!!! blame myself for poor foundation and not working hard to build my foundation up. left mcq
phy! OMG this is my most disappointing paper i took!!! i know i can pass cos i did study for it, but somehow maybe it was the flu. cos my brain to not think straight, so i cant do quite a number of easy question:( i was really hoping to get a b for phy. but now? i just hope to pass la. worst thing is, no one understand how much this exam meant to me. DSA!!! helo, if i don't do well. how to apply to SAJC? they wont freaking accept me lor! sian. and there goes some of my insensitive friends to rub on my wound by saying the ppr was easy. i mean, cant u tell i was upset?! and yet u laugh at my face when u found out all my stupid mistake. pls la! be sensitive can!!! yes, i know u may think i didn't work hard that's why you don't need to say something encouraging to me. but i changed my perspective towards phy already k. i DO WORK HARD FOR IT! k maybe i didn't do some of mr S hw but how would u know i don't do my own revision? u can encourage others but u couldn't care less about me. i don't expect u to be there for me every time, but at the very least, don't say a word if u don't know how to say nice things can.... I'm freaking angry now.argh! everyone needs encouragement now and then. when i was there for u, were u there for me? i feel our friendship pulling apart. i always feel its because I'm not smart enough that's why u don't want stay near me. and when i do do well in certain things, all u say is " why is my name not call out" or "hmmm okok la. its still not good" sigh...

i wanna be like some of my classmates. not because they are very smart but i want to be like those who have alot of commitment other than studies but still do ok because of hard work. yes, hard work is not in my vocabulary. and yes, i know i should really work hard. yes,i will. because i want to go a local uni so my parents can spend lesser on my education. i wanna make them proud. i wanna prove to the ppl who look down on me wrong. i wanna do God proud.

I'm sorry God, for my imperfections. but i will make the best out of my imperfections.