Wednesday 16 July 2008
the joy of their smile!
never expected today to be the best day of the week. school was per normal but after school i had to do my IPW at Da Qiao Primary School. was super dreading it because we had to commit our service for 6 months but never did i expect myself to enjoy it. i guess it was the smile on their faces that made me realised why am i doing this for. Celine my buddy! i love her! haha so cute! it feels great to volunteer our time to help those kids. it all worth while after all....
Sunday 13 July 2008
A lesson i need to learn
whats the difference between being alone and the feeling of loneliness?
i guess feeling lonely is a choice that i could choose. being alone is an inevitable situation that everyone experience.
the same way being happy is a choice. i could be happy in times of difficult situation or i could sit there and cry and be moody just because things doesn't go my way.
looking at it from this angle, it seems stupid to be sad when we could be happy but i never fail to choose the second option.
oh cant believe that im missing my kor kor. haha so weird. i was wishing he would quickly go NS a few days ago then now i want him to come back home soon.
i guess feeling lonely is a choice that i could choose. being alone is an inevitable situation that everyone experience.
the same way being happy is a choice. i could be happy in times of difficult situation or i could sit there and cry and be moody just because things doesn't go my way.
looking at it from this angle, it seems stupid to be sad when we could be happy but i never fail to choose the second option.
oh cant believe that im missing my kor kor. haha so weird. i was wishing he would quickly go NS a few days ago then now i want him to come back home soon.
Tuesday 8 July 2008
mask of my life
arghhh! i feel so sick right now. having a fever as well as sore throat and flu. so sick sick sick. don't wanna go school tomorrow cos got to go for IPW. and i'm so stress because we got to do IPW presentation.
God, i just wanna find rest in you. i feel physically, emotionally and spiritually weak. only you God can bring peace to my heart. i wanna be like the song still and know you're God.
i'm having a mix feeling now. feel kidda sad because i'm lost at who am i. finding my identity isn't very easy and Grace and Ivy says i'm putting on a mask. they describe me as a locked book with the keys thrown away. having to call the locksmith to actually get to unlock me so they could know me. i would some what agree with them cos people who don't know me very well would not know how to describe me much less describe my personality. but if they manage to "unlock me" they would completely see a whole new different side of me. do you count this as a mask or part of a person character. how i wish i could be just like i was before.
i really miss the time we spent together but was is past is past and i have to let go......
Monday 7 July 2008
quiz
1.What is the connection between you and the last person who called you?
grace: sec friend GLIMB clique
2.Did you ever turn off your hand phone?
yar, when I'm watching a movie but sometimes my phone just turn off by itself
3.What happened at 10am today?
travelling to meet some friends to go ice-skating
4.When did you last cry?
few days ago when i started remembering those things that hurt me
5.What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
bread with peanut butter
6.What do you want in your life right now?
Anything thats God wants to use in my life. i cant decide my path for my path in life is already decided by God and he knows the best for me. maybe all i ask in my life is being in God presense and the feeling of being cared by my loved ones
7. Do you carry your umbrella out when it rains, or do you just put on your hoodie?
carry an umbrella if i remember to bring it out
8.What is your favourite thing to put on your bed?
my mini pillow which have been around me still i was 0 years old
9.What bottoms are you wearing now?
FBT shorts
10.what does the nicest text in your inbox says?
soo many people type nice text to me i shall list all of them haha!
from james:1) all things come from our heavenly father. i was blessed to bless others.2)be happy everyday!hugz!
from Joanne:1)If you ever need to chat again, i'll be here k? Ha we can find the pick up van again:)God bless ya!2)keeping you in thoughts and prayers. God is our refuge and strenght. Run to him and rest in him.
Issac: 1)"humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on himbecause He cares for you." 1 Peter5:6-7
Ivy: 1) just remember you always have me to lean on.
11.Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
no i would just want a simple relationship
12.Are you wearing something that you borrowed from someone?
right now, no
13.What was the last movie you last caught?
get smart, brings back some tears and joy
14.What are you proud of?
being a christian as a CGPC youth
15.What does the oldest text message in your inbox says?
thats a funny question, i was tagging myself haha...
msg: mirabel: welcome to my blogs where you will realise im taking to myself
16.What is the last song you sang out loud?
i see grace
17.Do you have any nice names?
BEL
18.When was the last receive text message?
11.38am this morning
19.What time did you go to bed last night?
11am i think
20.Are you currently happy?
quite happy ;D todays iceskating was fun!
21.Who gives you the best advice?
me! no lar i guess it would be Ivy,Limxi,Grace(more of encouragement) James,Joanne,Issac,Ms Loh,Vanessa(aiya almost all my church youth gives me gd advices lar)
22.Do you eat whipped cream straight away from the can?
yup~ duhhhh the whipped cream is on top of course eat that first lar
23.Who did you talk on phone last night?
My mum and piano teacher
24.Is anything bugging you right now?
defnitely
25.What's bugging you right now?
friendship,family, my problematic attitude, myself,and last but not least my sin
26.Do you wear toe socks?
no found it quite disgusting yet cute at the same time
27.Who was the last person you last had a missed call from?
Grace haha 7times
28.Have you ever had your heartbroken?
yup in friendship, family, relationship
29.What annoys you most in a person?
someone who gossip and insult people and have irritating fringe
30.Do you have a crush on anyone?
duhhh yes of course
31.Have you ever done cocaine?
nope but i've done smoking(quit already hor) does that count
32.What is the colour of your room?
blue, green, yellow but i want it to be purple & pink
33.Would you kill someone you hate for a million dollars?
when someone is put under temptation, they may go for the one that benifits themselves or the easy way out but the bible states thou shall not kill and i don't want to live my life in guilt because i killed someone
34.Do you believe in the saying "talk is cheap"?
meaning? dont understand but i know faith without deed is dead
35.Who was the last person who lay in your bed?
don't remember my cousin Marion?
36.Who was the last person who hugged you?
ivy! we hugged each other as we were about to fall during ice skating
37.What is your definition of love?
wanting each other to have the best and be happy
38.Do you have a life?
what to you mean by that? my life is dancing for God
39.Have you ever think someone died,when they really didn't?
yup in my dreams and it really freak me out that i started crying in my dreams
40.What is the reason behind your profile song?
because it brings peace to my heart
41.Who was the last person you saw in your dreams?
can't remember but i know i dream of everyone in my dreams at least once
42.Last time I smiled?
just now when i fell on the ice sooo many times that my butt is wet
43.Have you ever change this year?
yup became less studious haha erm oh and more emotional
44.What are you listening to right now?
i could sing of your love forever
45.Are you talking to someone doing this?
nope not chatting to anyone at the moment
46.Do you walk with your eyes opened or closed?
95% of the time opened but sometimes when im tired i would just close my eyes for a few seconds
48.Do you want someone you can't have?
yup i want everyone whom i close with to be with me forever but i know thats not possible
49.Have you ever played an instrument?
the piano, keyboard, drums, violin, angklung, recorder
50.What is the worst idea you have this week?
none not regreting any ideas i had this week
51.What are you doing last night 11.00p.m?
erm sleeping haha
52.Are you happy with your love life?
yup. i'm being loved by everyone who cares for me espcially God
53.What song do you describe your love life?
any christian song could describe my love life just depends on the situation
54.What do you think of the person who tagged you?
my energizer who easily makes me smile because her favourite thing to do during her past time is to smile
55.Who always make you laugh?
lots of people Marion, Grace, Limxi, Ivy, Benedict, James, Joanne, Vanessa, Issac, Minmin, JiaHui, Caroline, Yuan Huey, Charlene, Christie, Keith, Adrain(yes yes i know i only met Keith,Adrain once but they still make me smile what), Shuying, Francine, Adelle
56.Do you speak other language other than English?
Chinese but really really basic chinese and little thai
57.Are you blond?
nope i'm happy that my hair colour which is brown and i like it the way it is already
58.What's your full name?
Jiang WanLin Mirabel
59.What are you doing tomorrow?
going to bukit timah nature reserve.
60.What do you think you are like?
a person who likes to giggle alot(spread the love of giggles!) and like to listen to others problems lending them a listening ear and just to be there for them with moral support
61.Who do you chose to die with?
with people i love
62.Where have you been today?
ice skating in jurong entertainment centre
63.What do you play often?
volleyball or dance
64.Who are you missing right now?
My school mates Glimb, Caroline and church mates
65.If you are given a choice between LOVE & FRIENDSHIP, which will you choose?
Love because i wouldnt mind spenting my time with my "more than just friend" guy
66.What are you doing right now?
blogging and listening to music
67.Which primary school are you from?
Parry Primary School
68.Name 3 colours you like.
Purple, Pink, Baby blue
69.What emotion you like to show?
giggling emotion
70.What is life to you?
a place for us to find out what are we going to serve in eternity for God and a place to spread the gospel
71.If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
cry i really want to cry with someone with me but sadly no one is around me when i really need someone to cry on
72.Who did you last chat in msn?
Grace
73.Who do you admire the most?
God(idolised)
74.Which month are you born in?
november
75.How are you feeling right now?
Joyful
76.What is the time now?
6.44pm
77.Where are you now?
home
78.What colour did you use to dye your hair?
i dont want to dye my hair like it the way it is
79.Why are you doing this test?
because i have been asked to and i really like to do test like this
80.What do you do when you're moody?
cry or just space out
81.At what age do you plan to get married?
2 years after i graduated from uni estimated: 24
82.Who is more important to you now, boyfriend or friends?
Friends not ready to get into another relationship yet
83.Do you think you have enough confidence?
no still finding my identify but i still have plenty of time
84.who is the person you trust most?
God, everyone will fail me but not God
85.Will you love your crush/boyfriend forever?
yar if its a steady relationship
86.If you ever have a dream come true, what would it be?
the have a job thats not desk bound and the job would benifit the community
87.What is your goal for this year?
to get scholarship so that i could pay for the trip to Cambodia. i wanna be independent to pay for my own stuff
88.Do you believe in eternity love?
whats thats? yes i guess
89.What feeling do you love most?
being love and being cared for
90.What will you do if smiling didnt exist?
91.What feeling do u hate the most?
feeling sick
92.Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
i used to take what i had for granted and not know until i lose them so now im not taking any chances in losing them
93.Do you believe in God?
yes. God lives!
94.Who cares for you most?
God and my loved ones
95.What do you think are the most important things in your life?
God, friendship, dancing, music
96.What will you bring when you fight?
nothing fight with my bare hands if not, run away! haha
97.Will you ever do something that will break the rule for your boyfriend?
depends on situation.hehe
98.Who is the person who sent you the most messages in your inbox?
James
99.What if your stead two-timed you?
is stead a word? i don't think i found it in the dictionary. if he two-timed me, i would first slap him(haha violent) and then break up with him.
100.What is you favourite hobby?
dancing, volleyball, tennis, playing musical instrument,swimming, iceskating
instructions: remove one question from the above and replace with a personal question of yours. Then, bold it . Next, list 10 person whom you want them to do this at the end of the post. Notify them in their tagboard or tell them at msn so that he/she knows.
1.Shuying
2.Francine
3.Adelle
4.Jaslyn
5.Ivy
6.anyone
7.anyone
8.anyone
9.anyone
10.anyone
grace: sec friend GLIMB clique
2.Did you ever turn off your hand phone?
yar, when I'm watching a movie but sometimes my phone just turn off by itself
3.What happened at 10am today?
travelling to meet some friends to go ice-skating
4.When did you last cry?
few days ago when i started remembering those things that hurt me
5.What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
bread with peanut butter
6.What do you want in your life right now?
Anything thats God wants to use in my life. i cant decide my path for my path in life is already decided by God and he knows the best for me. maybe all i ask in my life is being in God presense and the feeling of being cared by my loved ones
7. Do you carry your umbrella out when it rains, or do you just put on your hoodie?
carry an umbrella if i remember to bring it out
8.What is your favourite thing to put on your bed?
my mini pillow which have been around me still i was 0 years old
9.What bottoms are you wearing now?
FBT shorts
10.what does the nicest text in your inbox says?
soo many people type nice text to me i shall list all of them haha!
from james:1) all things come from our heavenly father. i was blessed to bless others.2)be happy everyday!hugz!
from Joanne:1)If you ever need to chat again, i'll be here k? Ha we can find the pick up van again:)God bless ya!2)keeping you in thoughts and prayers. God is our refuge and strenght. Run to him and rest in him.
Issac: 1)"humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on himbecause He cares for you." 1 Peter5:6-7
Ivy: 1) just remember you always have me to lean on.
11.Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
no i would just want a simple relationship
12.Are you wearing something that you borrowed from someone?
right now, no
13.What was the last movie you last caught?
get smart, brings back some tears and joy
14.What are you proud of?
being a christian as a CGPC youth
15.What does the oldest text message in your inbox says?
thats a funny question, i was tagging myself haha...
msg: mirabel: welcome to my blogs where you will realise im taking to myself
16.What is the last song you sang out loud?
i see grace
17.Do you have any nice names?
BEL
18.When was the last receive text message?
11.38am this morning
19.What time did you go to bed last night?
11am i think
20.Are you currently happy?
quite happy ;D todays iceskating was fun!
21.Who gives you the best advice?
me! no lar i guess it would be Ivy,Limxi,Grace(more of encouragement) James,Joanne,Issac,Ms Loh,Vanessa(aiya almost all my church youth gives me gd advices lar)
22.Do you eat whipped cream straight away from the can?
yup~ duhhhh the whipped cream is on top of course eat that first lar
23.Who did you talk on phone last night?
My mum and piano teacher
24.Is anything bugging you right now?
defnitely
25.What's bugging you right now?
friendship,family, my problematic attitude, myself,and last but not least my sin
26.Do you wear toe socks?
no found it quite disgusting yet cute at the same time
27.Who was the last person you last had a missed call from?
Grace haha 7times
28.Have you ever had your heartbroken?
yup in friendship, family, relationship
29.What annoys you most in a person?
someone who gossip and insult people and have irritating fringe
30.Do you have a crush on anyone?
duhhh yes of course
31.Have you ever done cocaine?
nope but i've done smoking(quit already hor) does that count
32.What is the colour of your room?
blue, green, yellow but i want it to be purple & pink
33.Would you kill someone you hate for a million dollars?
when someone is put under temptation, they may go for the one that benifits themselves or the easy way out but the bible states thou shall not kill and i don't want to live my life in guilt because i killed someone
34.Do you believe in the saying "talk is cheap"?
meaning? dont understand but i know faith without deed is dead
35.Who was the last person who lay in your bed?
don't remember my cousin Marion?
36.Who was the last person who hugged you?
ivy! we hugged each other as we were about to fall during ice skating
37.What is your definition of love?
wanting each other to have the best and be happy
38.Do you have a life?
what to you mean by that? my life is dancing for God
39.Have you ever think someone died,when they really didn't?
yup in my dreams and it really freak me out that i started crying in my dreams
40.What is the reason behind your profile song?
because it brings peace to my heart
41.Who was the last person you saw in your dreams?
can't remember but i know i dream of everyone in my dreams at least once
42.Last time I smiled?
just now when i fell on the ice sooo many times that my butt is wet
43.Have you ever change this year?
yup became less studious haha erm oh and more emotional
44.What are you listening to right now?
i could sing of your love forever
45.Are you talking to someone doing this?
nope not chatting to anyone at the moment
46.Do you walk with your eyes opened or closed?
95% of the time opened but sometimes when im tired i would just close my eyes for a few seconds
48.Do you want someone you can't have?
yup i want everyone whom i close with to be with me forever but i know thats not possible
49.Have you ever played an instrument?
the piano, keyboard, drums, violin, angklung, recorder
50.What is the worst idea you have this week?
none not regreting any ideas i had this week
51.What are you doing last night 11.00p.m?
erm sleeping haha
52.Are you happy with your love life?
yup. i'm being loved by everyone who cares for me espcially God
53.What song do you describe your love life?
any christian song could describe my love life just depends on the situation
54.What do you think of the person who tagged you?
my energizer who easily makes me smile because her favourite thing to do during her past time is to smile
55.Who always make you laugh?
lots of people Marion, Grace, Limxi, Ivy, Benedict, James, Joanne, Vanessa, Issac, Minmin, JiaHui, Caroline, Yuan Huey, Charlene, Christie, Keith, Adrain(yes yes i know i only met Keith,Adrain once but they still make me smile what), Shuying, Francine, Adelle
56.Do you speak other language other than English?
Chinese but really really basic chinese and little thai
57.Are you blond?
nope i'm happy that my hair colour which is brown and i like it the way it is already
58.What's your full name?
Jiang WanLin Mirabel
59.What are you doing tomorrow?
going to bukit timah nature reserve.
60.What do you think you are like?
a person who likes to giggle alot(spread the love of giggles!) and like to listen to others problems lending them a listening ear and just to be there for them with moral support
61.Who do you chose to die with?
with people i love
62.Where have you been today?
ice skating in jurong entertainment centre
63.What do you play often?
volleyball or dance
64.Who are you missing right now?
My school mates Glimb, Caroline and church mates
65.If you are given a choice between LOVE & FRIENDSHIP, which will you choose?
Love because i wouldnt mind spenting my time with my "more than just friend" guy
66.What are you doing right now?
blogging and listening to music
67.Which primary school are you from?
Parry Primary School
68.Name 3 colours you like.
Purple, Pink, Baby blue
69.What emotion you like to show?
giggling emotion
70.What is life to you?
a place for us to find out what are we going to serve in eternity for God and a place to spread the gospel
71.If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
cry i really want to cry with someone with me but sadly no one is around me when i really need someone to cry on
72.Who did you last chat in msn?
Grace
73.Who do you admire the most?
God(idolised)
74.Which month are you born in?
november
75.How are you feeling right now?
Joyful
76.What is the time now?
6.44pm
77.Where are you now?
home
78.What colour did you use to dye your hair?
i dont want to dye my hair like it the way it is
79.Why are you doing this test?
because i have been asked to and i really like to do test like this
80.What do you do when you're moody?
cry or just space out
81.At what age do you plan to get married?
2 years after i graduated from uni estimated: 24
82.Who is more important to you now, boyfriend or friends?
Friends not ready to get into another relationship yet
83.Do you think you have enough confidence?
no still finding my identify but i still have plenty of time
84.who is the person you trust most?
God, everyone will fail me but not God
85.Will you love your crush/boyfriend forever?
yar if its a steady relationship
86.If you ever have a dream come true, what would it be?
the have a job thats not desk bound and the job would benifit the community
87.What is your goal for this year?
to get scholarship so that i could pay for the trip to Cambodia. i wanna be independent to pay for my own stuff
88.Do you believe in eternity love?
whats thats? yes i guess
89.What feeling do you love most?
being love and being cared for
90.What will you do if smiling didnt exist?
91.What feeling do u hate the most?
feeling sick
92.Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
i used to take what i had for granted and not know until i lose them so now im not taking any chances in losing them
93.Do you believe in God?
yes. God lives!
94.Who cares for you most?
God and my loved ones
95.What do you think are the most important things in your life?
God, friendship, dancing, music
96.What will you bring when you fight?
nothing fight with my bare hands if not, run away! haha
97.Will you ever do something that will break the rule for your boyfriend?
depends on situation.hehe
98.Who is the person who sent you the most messages in your inbox?
James
99.What if your stead two-timed you?
is stead a word? i don't think i found it in the dictionary. if he two-timed me, i would first slap him(haha violent) and then break up with him.
100.What is you favourite hobby?
dancing, volleyball, tennis, playing musical instrument,swimming, iceskating
instructions: remove one question from the above and replace with a personal question of yours. Then, bold it . Next, list 10 person whom you want them to do this at the end of the post. Notify them in their tagboard or tell them at msn so that he/she knows.
1.Shuying
2.Francine
3.Adelle
4.Jaslyn
5.Ivy
6.anyone
7.anyone
8.anyone
9.anyone
10.anyone
Saturday 5 July 2008
im joyful in spirit!
this would be like my happiest post in weeks...
feel so happy and joyful and i don't even know why?
i've been feeling happy and hyper since yesterday CG.
let just say everything is falling back to place.
weeeeeeeeeeee! so hyper!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha... im joyful in spirit!
to add on to the enjoyment, there is no school on monday! yay!!!! and techers didn't give homework so im super free. well, not completely free... i have IPW presentation waiting for me to be completed so must JYJY!
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i guess im happier because im letting it go. what they said is right. not everything is in my control and i have to be happy so that others will not think im being unfriendly. every fight takes two hands to clap and i do have one person to depend on when i sad or lonely or scared... he is none other than GOD!
you GOD make me see the light.... and no one else can do this other than you...
i know your have been there for me in times of need and your will still be there for me in the future... just wanna say a big fat thank you! =D
feel so happy and joyful and i don't even know why?
i've been feeling happy and hyper since yesterday CG.
let just say everything is falling back to place.
weeeeeeeeeeee! so hyper!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha... im joyful in spirit!
to add on to the enjoyment, there is no school on monday! yay!!!! and techers didn't give homework so im super free. well, not completely free... i have IPW presentation waiting for me to be completed so must JYJY!
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>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>
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i guess im happier because im letting it go. what they said is right. not everything is in my control and i have to be happy so that others will not think im being unfriendly. every fight takes two hands to clap and i do have one person to depend on when i sad or lonely or scared... he is none other than GOD!
you GOD make me see the light.... and no one else can do this other than you...
i know your have been there for me in times of need and your will still be there for me in the future... just wanna say a big fat thank you! =D
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