“Please, Aslan,” said Lucy. “Before we go, will you tell us when we can come back to Narnia again? Please. And oh, do, do, do make it soon.”
“Dearest,” said Aslan very gently, “you and your brother will never come back to Narnia.”
“Oh, Aslan!!” said Edmund and Lucy both together in despairing voices.
“You are too old, children,” said Aslan, “and you must begin to come close to your own world now.”
“It isn't Narnia, you know,” sobbed Lucy. “It's you. We shan't meet you there. And how can we live, never meeting you?”
“But you shall meet me, dear one,” said Aslan.
“Are are you there too, Sir?” said Edmund.
“I am,” said Aslan. “But there I have another name. You must learn to know me by that name. This was the very reason why you were brought to Narnia, that by knowing me here for a little, you may know me better there.”
Wednesday 29 December 2010
“Please, Aslan,” said Lucy. “Before we go, will you tell us when we can come back to Narnia again? Please. And oh, do, do, do make it soon.”
“Dearest,” said Aslan very gently, “you and your brother will never come back to Narnia.”
“Oh, Aslan!!” said Edmund and Lucy both together in despairing voices.
“You are too old, children,” said Aslan, “and you must begin to come close to your own world now.”
“It isn't Narnia, you know,” sobbed Lucy. “It's you. We shan't meet you there. And how can we live, never meeting you?”
“But you shall meet me, dear one,” said Aslan.
“Are are you there too, Sir?” said Edmund.
“I am,” said Aslan. “But there I have another name. You must learn to know me by that name. This was the very reason why you were brought to Narnia, that by knowing me here for a little, you may know me better there.”
“Dearest,” said Aslan very gently, “you and your brother will never come back to Narnia.”
“Oh, Aslan!!” said Edmund and Lucy both together in despairing voices.
“You are too old, children,” said Aslan, “and you must begin to come close to your own world now.”
“It isn't Narnia, you know,” sobbed Lucy. “It's you. We shan't meet you there. And how can we live, never meeting you?”
“But you shall meet me, dear one,” said Aslan.
“Are are you there too, Sir?” said Edmund.
“I am,” said Aslan. “But there I have another name. You must learn to know me by that name. This was the very reason why you were brought to Narnia, that by knowing me here for a little, you may know me better there.”
Sunday 19 December 2010
God, i believe i am ready.
no more distraction and wandering off tracks
cos its you who i am searching for.
and now that i have found you,
im never letting go.
use me in whatever way you like
even though it may hurt sometimes,
but i will always remind myself,
"endure hardship with us like a good soldier of christ jesus"
for i am yours to mold,
mold into your masterpiece.
Thursday 9 December 2010
when love comes around, and it knocks you down, just get back up when it knocks you down
so, i guess i still thinking of you.
but hey, no worries, i will get over you soon enough:)
not that i have a choice or anything.
gah rejections happens everyday
from those people giving out flyers at mrt stations,
to rejection from a school or job interview
and to rejection from your loved ones and friends whom you needed most whenever you are upset, but they were not around.
we all played every one of those characters before.
yet, at times it still pains us whenever we are being rejected.
funny isn't?
hope you are having lots of fun with your new found love:)
a little advice, keep it real, keep it true, keep it simple...
perhaps maybe it will work out this time!
Monday 6 December 2010
i woke up after my afternoon nap,
and suddenly,
everything changed.
i had sense of peace and calmness in my heart that i have not felt for a long time.
then this song came into my head
it really touched my heart
Holy Holy
I will bow before
My Lord and King
Hallelujah
You have come to us
You make all things new
Emmanuel
Jesus Christ
You'll never let me go
My Shepherd King
You'll never let me go
My Sheperd King
You're watching over me
Emmanuel
So amazing
You have named the stars
Of the deepest night
Still You love me
You have called my name
I will follow You
Holy Holy
God Almighty
There is none like You
Holy Holy
God Almighty
There is none like You
how true the lyrics is and i do believe it
yet i don't fully trust it.
and i had a sudden confirmation not to work anymore.
cos i thought about it, like i will be working 3/4 of my life away next time,
why waste my precious youth time working then?
so yea, i would probably find volunteering work to do instead:)
on top of that,
i met my long most cousin that i haven since in a real long time like 5years???
haha i was fun getting to know him again:)
and suddenly,
everything changed.
i had sense of peace and calmness in my heart that i have not felt for a long time.
then this song came into my head
it really touched my heart
Holy Holy
I will bow before
My Lord and King
Hallelujah
You have come to us
You make all things new
Emmanuel
Jesus Christ
You'll never let me go
My Shepherd King
You'll never let me go
My Sheperd King
You're watching over me
Emmanuel
So amazing
You have named the stars
Of the deepest night
Still You love me
You have called my name
I will follow You
Holy Holy
God Almighty
There is none like You
Holy Holy
God Almighty
There is none like You
how true the lyrics is and i do believe it
yet i don't fully trust it.
and i had a sudden confirmation not to work anymore.
cos i thought about it, like i will be working 3/4 of my life away next time,
why waste my precious youth time working then?
so yea, i would probably find volunteering work to do instead:)
on top of that,
i met my long most cousin that i haven since in a real long time like 5years???
haha i was fun getting to know him again:)
Sunday 5 December 2010
Wednesday 17 November 2010
you have no idea how hard it is.
don't you dare think that i don't want to help you with the task and curse me with all that nonsense.
i don't give a fucking damn about what your opinions are on me for not "helping" you.
your lack of patience, stupid bloody rolling eyes, and irritating tone you have in your voice don't deserve my attention at all.
stop the "i don't know" and stop acting like the whole world owes me something.
thats called steps on being a BITCH!
don't you dare think that i don't want to help you with the task and curse me with all that nonsense.
i don't give a fucking damn about what your opinions are on me for not "helping" you.
your lack of patience, stupid bloody rolling eyes, and irritating tone you have in your voice don't deserve my attention at all.
stop the "i don't know" and stop acting like the whole world owes me something.
thats called steps on being a BITCH!
Tuesday 16 November 2010
Saturday 13 November 2010
Saturday 4 September 2010
its been quite a while since i posted.
updates are,
1) i passed my chinese!!!
thank God! and my beloved chinese teacher as well for all her help.
2) i lost something again.
its the 2 time, why am i so forgetful???
3) prelim 2 have started.
honestly, i am very stress about it.
kept falling sick because of stress.
its especially very frustrating that 20points is now a extremely hard task to reach.
i cry about O's almost everyday.
its like in 51 days time...
totally unprepared.
i still need my 20points to get in NYJC man.
darn its hard.
especially u know nuts about ur science and math.
oh God please carry me through!
On the bright side,
after O's there are so many things i can do
1)join ballet classes
2)contemparary dance classes
3)back to gymnastics!
4)church camp:)
5)genting trip with my beloved dancers
6)hiphop classes
7)choreograph more dance!
8)get a job at SDT probably
9)volunteer at childcare centre or SPCA or hospital??? maybe
10)prom
11)...
so many things to do!
i can't wait after 12nov when the clock strucks 9am:)
But after O'level results, life would be boring again.
either JC or poly or Dance?
Sometimes, whatever was said in the past doesn't really matter because people change, good or bad.
never knew people could hold grudge and anger over something that happen because of a little misunderstanding years ago. tsk...
"do not let a pebble behind you, trip you"
sometimes, when bad things happen in the past. you just gotta forgive and not blame others. A simple sentence, I'm sorry, please forgive me. may seem like it doesn't really help the situation but this very sentence is meant to give closure so that both parties and get over it and move on.
i just don't quite understand the point of bringing up the past to bring about unhappiness for both parties...
updates are,
1) i passed my chinese!!!
thank God! and my beloved chinese teacher as well for all her help.
2) i lost something again.
its the 2 time, why am i so forgetful???
3) prelim 2 have started.
honestly, i am very stress about it.
kept falling sick because of stress.
its especially very frustrating that 20points is now a extremely hard task to reach.
i cry about O's almost everyday.
its like in 51 days time...
totally unprepared.
i still need my 20points to get in NYJC man.
darn its hard.
especially u know nuts about ur science and math.
oh God please carry me through!
On the bright side,
after O's there are so many things i can do
1)join ballet classes
2)contemparary dance classes
3)back to gymnastics!
4)church camp:)
5)genting trip with my beloved dancers
6)hiphop classes
7)choreograph more dance!
8)get a job at SDT probably
9)volunteer at childcare centre or SPCA or hospital??? maybe
10)prom
11)...
so many things to do!
i can't wait after 12nov when the clock strucks 9am:)
But after O'level results, life would be boring again.
either JC or poly or Dance?
Sometimes, whatever was said in the past doesn't really matter because people change, good or bad.
never knew people could hold grudge and anger over something that happen because of a little misunderstanding years ago. tsk...
"do not let a pebble behind you, trip you"
sometimes, when bad things happen in the past. you just gotta forgive and not blame others. A simple sentence, I'm sorry, please forgive me. may seem like it doesn't really help the situation but this very sentence is meant to give closure so that both parties and get over it and move on.
i just don't quite understand the point of bringing up the past to bring about unhappiness for both parties...
Saturday 7 August 2010
I finally realised i am not looking for a guy who can fill my empty heart with superficial love.
But, rather, i searching for a brother who can lead me.
A brother who is a good example for me to follow.
A brother who can protect me.
A brother who can shower me with 'brotherly love'.
A brother who is christ-like.
Am i suppose to find that brother in Jesus?
Or does that person with such character really exist?
But, rather, i searching for a brother who can lead me.
A brother who is a good example for me to follow.
A brother who can protect me.
A brother who can shower me with 'brotherly love'.
A brother who is christ-like.
Am i suppose to find that brother in Jesus?
Or does that person with such character really exist?
Oh God, its such a struggle.
It feels like the world is collapsing on me.
Studying for Olevels is hell of a struggle!
especially for me, since my L1R5 is like 27.
yea shocking....
and another struggle only God u know.
well the 1 year deal is left with another 5 more months.
i thought i got over you, but its harder then i thought.
And this few months, i realised how unprepared i am for another r/s.
oh God, fill me with your love.
for only your love can fill me up fully.
May God bless all who are taking their Olevels this year.
To God be gloried!
It feels like the world is collapsing on me.
Studying for Olevels is hell of a struggle!
especially for me, since my L1R5 is like 27.
yea shocking....
and another struggle only God u know.
well the 1 year deal is left with another 5 more months.
i thought i got over you, but its harder then i thought.
And this few months, i realised how unprepared i am for another r/s.
oh God, fill me with your love.
for only your love can fill me up fully.
May God bless all who are taking their Olevels this year.
To God be gloried!
Tuesday 3 August 2010
I can conquer my Mt Everest because i have an ever living God.
"Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong."
just a thought,
every Human Being makes mistakes.
sometimes these mistakes hurt others deeply,
til a point they become so numb they cant accept 'sorry' anymore.
Well, to all those people i hurt you with my words, action, accusation and impossible expectation for you to live up. I'm sorry.
this 5 letter word may seem very small,
but it is a powerful word to use.
And i really mean what i say.
i really want to reconcile with you and ask for your forgiveness.
for without forgiveness,
we will unknowingly bear hatred on each other.
During FOP,
i commmited my life back to JESUS
and God told me,
to have joy within me,
i must reconcile back with others.
i need to change my life that i will be a mirror that has reflection of Jesus.
"Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong."
just a thought,
every Human Being makes mistakes.
sometimes these mistakes hurt others deeply,
til a point they become so numb they cant accept 'sorry' anymore.
Well, to all those people i hurt you with my words, action, accusation and impossible expectation for you to live up. I'm sorry.
this 5 letter word may seem very small,
but it is a powerful word to use.
And i really mean what i say.
i really want to reconcile with you and ask for your forgiveness.
for without forgiveness,
we will unknowingly bear hatred on each other.
During FOP,
i commmited my life back to JESUS
and God told me,
to have joy within me,
i must reconcile back with others.
i need to change my life that i will be a mirror that has reflection of Jesus.
Friday 9 July 2010
the temptation that overwhelms our heart
hiding our deadly sins
pretending its all alright
how far will temptation bring you?
how far will you go to give your heart, just to feel 'emotion' again?
are we all ready to submit this, short term pleasure?
the grey line of love or sin is impossible to tell
where do we stop before its all too late?
before we get addicted?
is there such thing as point of no return
or is it just an excuse to cover for our 'love'
enlighten me,
what is Love?
Monday 31 May 2010
Sunday 23 May 2010
Meridian JC lah.
But if you like, MJC can be mangkali jc, majesty' jc, Majulah jc, Merlion JC also
can lah.
By the way, my primary school is Pulau Ubin Primary School, my secondary school is Pulau Tekong Secondary School, my junior college is Sentosa Junior College and my university is Merlion University and my professor is Professor Sang Nila Utama.
oh man this guy is super funny!!!
haha
i was checking out which jc i should try out for mjc or sajc and i came across this.
super funny!
anyway
i love sajc because:
1)nearer
2)uniform
3)sporty boys who play rugby:)
4)retain rate lower than mjc
5)christian school
6)their dance is better than meridian
i love mjc because:
1)more distinctions in their subjects as compared to sajc
2)value added school
3)their a young school but cca is not too bad either
4)their not like nyjc with crazy chinese speaking ppl.:)
also, im in love with acjc as well because:
1)their sports = fantastic!
2)hot boys>??? not so sure, ha
3)humanities elective programme!
4)their COP is comparable to AJC which is known to be a not bad school
however, they have 3 bad points too sad to say:
1)dont focus on their aesthetics cca like dance
2)rich kids school
3)too far from my home.
oh wells, im considering other jcs too other than these few like:
cjc(love the dance and ccas there, hate their pe curriculum )
nyjc(good in volleyball but mostly chinese speaking ppl and not so sure they do well in GP)
rjc(i dont even wanna think of their school. ha too hard to get in unless i use dsa but what are the chances? 0.000000001%?)
srjc(not too bad either, good in dance, 15mins walk from home...)
tjc/vjc(just considering these 2 schools but i doubt i will be able to survive there as well. i prefer vjc more though. vjc is a cool jc!:))
the other jcs i dont like or its too far so left these few.
perhaps poly is my calling?(i love the design and humanities courses offered. maybe i should join my sister in business course? but i also want something related to the arts, the theatre... theatre studies???? is there such course? so confuse)
or sota or nafa?(hard life and there is no turning back once i set my foot on these schools)
overseas education that major in dance and studies as well???(no money no talk:()
But if you like, MJC can be mangkali jc, majesty' jc, Majulah jc, Merlion JC also
can lah.
By the way, my primary school is Pulau Ubin Primary School, my secondary school is Pulau Tekong Secondary School, my junior college is Sentosa Junior College and my university is Merlion University and my professor is Professor Sang Nila Utama.
oh man this guy is super funny!!!
haha
i was checking out which jc i should try out for mjc or sajc and i came across this.
super funny!
anyway
i love sajc because:
1)nearer
2)uniform
3)sporty boys who play rugby:)
4)retain rate lower than mjc
5)christian school
6)their dance is better than meridian
i love mjc because:
1)more distinctions in their subjects as compared to sajc
2)value added school
3)their a young school but cca is not too bad either
4)their not like nyjc with crazy chinese speaking ppl.:)
also, im in love with acjc as well because:
1)their sports = fantastic!
2)hot boys>??? not so sure, ha
3)humanities elective programme!
4)their COP is comparable to AJC which is known to be a not bad school
however, they have 3 bad points too sad to say:
1)dont focus on their aesthetics cca like dance
2)rich kids school
3)too far from my home.
oh wells, im considering other jcs too other than these few like:
cjc(love the dance and ccas there, hate their pe curriculum )
nyjc(good in volleyball but mostly chinese speaking ppl and not so sure they do well in GP)
rjc(i dont even wanna think of their school. ha too hard to get in unless i use dsa but what are the chances? 0.000000001%?)
srjc(not too bad either, good in dance, 15mins walk from home...)
tjc/vjc(just considering these 2 schools but i doubt i will be able to survive there as well. i prefer vjc more though. vjc is a cool jc!:))
the other jcs i dont like or its too far so left these few.
perhaps poly is my calling?(i love the design and humanities courses offered. maybe i should join my sister in business course? but i also want something related to the arts, the theatre... theatre studies???? is there such course? so confuse)
or sota or nafa?(hard life and there is no turning back once i set my foot on these schools)
overseas education that major in dance and studies as well???(no money no talk:()
Saturday 22 May 2010
KATHRYN DANCING ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!
SHE'S AWESOME!!!
HER DANCING IS INDESCIRABLE!!!
im learning her solo for my dsa...
praying hard the jcs/dance schools would give me a second chance and not regect my application immediately when they see my horrifying results:/
Oh God, only you know whats best for me.
you are the one who decides my path.
so please tell me, where do u wanna me to go?
im still not sure whether to drop chemistry or continue with pure science or combined science...
i seriously dislike chemistry and i love physics!
im weird...
sigh my results,
ha well it sucks.
L1R5: 27=GG
will there be a miracle in my results lord?
i wanna make a change!!!!!!!!
but its so hard.:(
this would probably be my last few post as im gonna disconnect my computer by june to copncentrate on Olevel.
i freaking hate Olevel!
because of Olevel, i cant partcipate in YOG as a performer!!!!!
hate O's!!!!!
argh!!!
Tuesday 11 May 2010
prelim now...
well i give one word to describe it, TERRIBLE!!!
eng was ok
chinese left oral and LC. surprisingly this are 2 papers that i can fail. weird.
emath was ok. praying for a2
amath left p2. i hope ppr2 is easy. but i doubt it. pass i will be very happy already.
chem hahaha screwed!!! blame myself for poor foundation and not working hard to build my foundation up. left mcq
phy! OMG this is my most disappointing paper i took!!! i know i can pass cos i did study for it, but somehow maybe it was the flu. cos my brain to not think straight, so i cant do quite a number of easy question:( i was really hoping to get a b for phy. but now? i just hope to pass la. worst thing is, no one understand how much this exam meant to me. DSA!!! helo, if i don't do well. how to apply to SAJC? they wont freaking accept me lor! sian. and there goes some of my insensitive friends to rub on my wound by saying the ppr was easy. i mean, cant u tell i was upset?! and yet u laugh at my face when u found out all my stupid mistake. pls la! be sensitive can!!! yes, i know u may think i didn't work hard that's why you don't need to say something encouraging to me. but i changed my perspective towards phy already k. i DO WORK HARD FOR IT! k maybe i didn't do some of mr S hw but how would u know i don't do my own revision? u can encourage others but u couldn't care less about me. i don't expect u to be there for me every time, but at the very least, don't say a word if u don't know how to say nice things can.... I'm freaking angry now.argh! everyone needs encouragement now and then. when i was there for u, were u there for me? i feel our friendship pulling apart. i always feel its because I'm not smart enough that's why u don't want stay near me. and when i do do well in certain things, all u say is " why is my name not call out" or "hmmm okok la. its still not good" sigh...
i wanna be like some of my classmates. not because they are very smart but i want to be like those who have alot of commitment other than studies but still do ok because of hard work. yes, hard work is not in my vocabulary. and yes, i know i should really work hard. yes,i will. because i want to go a local uni so my parents can spend lesser on my education. i wanna make them proud. i wanna prove to the ppl who look down on me wrong. i wanna do God proud.
I'm sorry God, for my imperfections. but i will make the best out of my imperfections.
well i give one word to describe it, TERRIBLE!!!
eng was ok
chinese left oral and LC. surprisingly this are 2 papers that i can fail. weird.
emath was ok. praying for a2
amath left p2. i hope ppr2 is easy. but i doubt it. pass i will be very happy already.
chem hahaha screwed!!! blame myself for poor foundation and not working hard to build my foundation up. left mcq
phy! OMG this is my most disappointing paper i took!!! i know i can pass cos i did study for it, but somehow maybe it was the flu. cos my brain to not think straight, so i cant do quite a number of easy question:( i was really hoping to get a b for phy. but now? i just hope to pass la. worst thing is, no one understand how much this exam meant to me. DSA!!! helo, if i don't do well. how to apply to SAJC? they wont freaking accept me lor! sian. and there goes some of my insensitive friends to rub on my wound by saying the ppr was easy. i mean, cant u tell i was upset?! and yet u laugh at my face when u found out all my stupid mistake. pls la! be sensitive can!!! yes, i know u may think i didn't work hard that's why you don't need to say something encouraging to me. but i changed my perspective towards phy already k. i DO WORK HARD FOR IT! k maybe i didn't do some of mr S hw but how would u know i don't do my own revision? u can encourage others but u couldn't care less about me. i don't expect u to be there for me every time, but at the very least, don't say a word if u don't know how to say nice things can.... I'm freaking angry now.argh! everyone needs encouragement now and then. when i was there for u, were u there for me? i feel our friendship pulling apart. i always feel its because I'm not smart enough that's why u don't want stay near me. and when i do do well in certain things, all u say is " why is my name not call out" or "hmmm okok la. its still not good" sigh...
i wanna be like some of my classmates. not because they are very smart but i want to be like those who have alot of commitment other than studies but still do ok because of hard work. yes, hard work is not in my vocabulary. and yes, i know i should really work hard. yes,i will. because i want to go a local uni so my parents can spend lesser on my education. i wanna make them proud. i wanna prove to the ppl who look down on me wrong. i wanna do God proud.
I'm sorry God, for my imperfections. but i will make the best out of my imperfections.
Monday 26 April 2010
2 flashers! OMG. wats with the world today?
cleanse my eyes lord.
those obscene image makes me fear boys more.
i love the song Note TO God and desert song:)
VERSE 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides
VERSE 2:
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame
CHORUS:
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
VERSE 3:
This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
CHORUS:
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
BRIDGE:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship (x4)
CHORUS:
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here (x2)
VERSE 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow
cleanse my eyes lord.
those obscene image makes me fear boys more.
i love the song Note TO God and desert song:)
VERSE 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides
VERSE 2:
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame
CHORUS:
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
VERSE 3:
This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
CHORUS:
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
BRIDGE:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship (x4)
CHORUS:
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here (x2)
VERSE 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow
Wednesday 21 April 2010
Wednesday 31 March 2010
going on a haitus real soon.
sometimes its time to let go..
4years of secretly liking you.
but what do i get in return?
nothing.
just more pain and hurt.
you notice other ppl who u just met,
and ignore my presence.
u only talk to me when u need help.
wat is this?
im not a servant to u.
even u say i treat u better than u treat me.
and stop saying im mean cos im not.
i cant get myself to tell you that i like u.... tsk
k im not gonna bother about ur life anymore.
Wednesday 17 March 2010
Saturday 20 February 2010
35Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36As it is written:
"For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered."[a] 37No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.Romans 8:35-37
my mum drove me to tuition today.
we were having normal conversation then she suddenly asked me,
are you gonna have baptism this year?
your turning 16 this year so its time i made the decision.
honestly, i dont know.
cos firstly i prefer a 'full body baptism' in the river but sadly my church dont practice that.
secondly, baptism classes will be in chinese... like ZOMG! how am i gonna understand?
third, im not sure whether i wanna continue in this church cos of language barrier and being baptisted in a church gives u right to vote.
fourth, i wanna be baptisted with my friends. so scary to do it alone:(
fiveth, most importantly am i ready for it? to follow Christ for all my life? i still think i need more time. im not mature enough to set a good example and really commit to this promise to CHRIST... perhaps maybe after praying and advices from churchmates and family may help. and also, to observe this year how christ love works through me?
hmmm, please pray for me to make a choice?
Amen!
"For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered."[a] 37No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.Romans 8:35-37
my mum drove me to tuition today.
we were having normal conversation then she suddenly asked me,
are you gonna have baptism this year?
your turning 16 this year so its time i made the decision.
honestly, i dont know.
cos firstly i prefer a 'full body baptism' in the river but sadly my church dont practice that.
secondly, baptism classes will be in chinese... like ZOMG! how am i gonna understand?
third, im not sure whether i wanna continue in this church cos of language barrier and being baptisted in a church gives u right to vote.
fourth, i wanna be baptisted with my friends. so scary to do it alone:(
fiveth, most importantly am i ready for it? to follow Christ for all my life? i still think i need more time. im not mature enough to set a good example and really commit to this promise to CHRIST... perhaps maybe after praying and advices from churchmates and family may help. and also, to observe this year how christ love works through me?
hmmm, please pray for me to make a choice?
Amen!
Wednesday 17 February 2010
stress!!!
still waiting....:(
Oh My,
i haven seen u guys since january???
:(:(:(
wish all of us could meet soon...
i miss the laughter and the talks to relieve myself from stress!
haha
i feel i slacked alot in class.
1)sleeping in class and tuition
2)eating to stay awake which doesnt work all the time
3)lazy to do homework
4)short attention span
5)feel like giving up on subjects again
even right now, i fear history...
my brain has been pressurized to get a1 for history til i broke down during one of my test!:(
i have never failed history in my life!
much less give a b4 or less for it...
im scared to see ms khai!!!!
sigh
Oh LORD, please give me more self control and patiene when i study and while waiting for that answer... Amen
Sunday 7 February 2010
so confused now.
the thoughts of wat to do after Olevel keeps coming back.
quite a number of pathways i wanna go.
of course results matters alot too.
should i go:
1) theatre studies
2) psychology
3) social work
4) NAFA or Lasalle to continue dance
5) major in history
6) bible college????
i dont know, tsk...
God pls intervent!
the thoughts of wat to do after Olevel keeps coming back.
quite a number of pathways i wanna go.
of course results matters alot too.
should i go:
1) theatre studies
2) psychology
3) social work
4) NAFA or Lasalle to continue dance
5) major in history
6) bible college????
i dont know, tsk...
God pls intervent!
Friday 5 February 2010
Saturday 30 January 2010
todays verse:
to be completely humble and gentle, patient, bearing with each other in love...
1) to be humble. especially when good things happen. we should always only boast in jesus name.
2) to be gentle. haha perhaps i need to be gentle with my words towards ppl. gentleness not only come physically but also verbally. we all need to learn how to be gentle in our criticism for its really easy to be gentle in encouragement.
3) to be patient. yup this is a real hard task for me. at times, i just want results to come quickly. sadly, i forget that everything is in his time. not MY time. therefore, patient is needed in every prayer. and full faith too!
4) love. ahh, this 4 letter words. it could make you or tear you. perhaps thats why God said: "do not awaken love until the time is right" but the love here im talking about is love for one another. love for our family, firends and even enemies. seems like a hard task to love our enemies right. but if we dont love our enemies, wat difference does it make to pre believers? we are doing the exact same thing thhey would do.
God i really wanna dance for you. but it is time yet?
woah super eventful week!
had 4test out of 5days.
amazing right!
ha
and highlights of this week
1) i finally did a front flip! yipee!
2) i passed physics! with a B4! from f9 to B4!!!
Amen!
God is gracious!
all for the audience of ONE..
im gonna push myself even harder to do my best and reach my fullest potential.:)
and also, i should really stop stressing myself and worry about tmr for tmr have its own set of worries. instead,i should trust and depend on God for more help.
yup, so no matter how difficult it may be before dance competition.
im gonna give all my best shot.
and God will do the rest:)
oh ya,
before i forget,
i took up french!
for ...
1day LOL
not that i dislike it then i drop.
but i really had limited time.
perhaps next time.
right now i jus wanna concentrate on dance and studies and church..
opps which reminds me church stuff waiting for me...
ciao
had 4test out of 5days.
amazing right!
ha
and highlights of this week
1) i finally did a front flip! yipee!
2) i passed physics! with a B4! from f9 to B4!!!
Amen!
God is gracious!
all for the audience of ONE..
im gonna push myself even harder to do my best and reach my fullest potential.:)
and also, i should really stop stressing myself and worry about tmr for tmr have its own set of worries. instead,i should trust and depend on God for more help.
yup, so no matter how difficult it may be before dance competition.
im gonna give all my best shot.
and God will do the rest:)
oh ya,
before i forget,
i took up french!
for ...
1day LOL
not that i dislike it then i drop.
but i really had limited time.
perhaps next time.
right now i jus wanna concentrate on dance and studies and church..
opps which reminds me church stuff waiting for me...
ciao
Wednesday 27 January 2010
Monday 25 January 2010
jus a shot update, the person beside me is my awesome sis! she sat beside me while i played the piano for church musical!:) love my dearest sissy!
DRAGONBOAT with YAY200%
the lovable people!
oh P.S. i rock at it...!
muahahahha
so BHB
next time anyone wanna kayak or Dboat call me along k!
ok back to the mountain of books.
let us be one voice that glorifies ur name!
Tuesday 12 January 2010
Sunday 3 January 2010
Saturday 2 January 2010
Friday 1 January 2010
Happy Blessed New Year!:)
youth and young adults church retreat was awesome to the max!
we saw fireworks!(mini ones cos we were too far from it)
played poker cards til 6am in the morning.
worship God with all our heart and voice.
and much more.
had so much fun.
trust fall was realy something to rmb.
why?
cos it made me cry.
haha.
not cos i scared. k maybe i was scared.
but i didnt cry cos i was scared.
cos my heart was broken by God.
you need to be broken to be used by God.
someone said these words that made me cry:
"ur falling into God's arms. God will be catching u. let go. let go of all the probs u faced in 2009. be it BGR, studies. church, friendship... jus let go. and let god take the wheel"
something like that.
then i was so touched, i cried.
heh
anyway 2010 is gonna be really busy year.
Olevel is enough to kill, still have dance and church.
well i like church. so isnt much of a problem:)
k 2009 hw not done yet.
nvm, i gave up.
too many!!!
roar
youth and young adults church retreat was awesome to the max!
we saw fireworks!(mini ones cos we were too far from it)
played poker cards til 6am in the morning.
worship God with all our heart and voice.
and much more.
had so much fun.
trust fall was realy something to rmb.
why?
cos it made me cry.
haha.
not cos i scared. k maybe i was scared.
but i didnt cry cos i was scared.
cos my heart was broken by God.
you need to be broken to be used by God.
someone said these words that made me cry:
"ur falling into God's arms. God will be catching u. let go. let go of all the probs u faced in 2009. be it BGR, studies. church, friendship... jus let go. and let god take the wheel"
something like that.
then i was so touched, i cried.
heh
anyway 2010 is gonna be really busy year.
Olevel is enough to kill, still have dance and church.
well i like church. so isnt much of a problem:)
k 2009 hw not done yet.
nvm, i gave up.
too many!!!
roar
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