I shouldn't have said it.
Because of my stupidity,
the friendship i cared so much about is gone.
why did this friendship waiver and fall after a storm?
was it because our friendship only continued because it was depended on talking about one person?
if that was really the case,
then its good and bad this friendship ended.
its good because i wont end up being the only one giving and not receiving.
its bad because i don't really care that i get anything back. i just want to know how are you coping with everything, thats all.
its either im a good intention termite or a Barnabas.

Oh God, if its your will, may you bless me with another Brother-in-christ that we both can look out for each other. Amen.

okay so yesterday was a bad day.
i let my mood be affect by a dream.
ha actually does sound funny now.
but still, it was a bad dream.


Romans 6:15-17

Slaves to Righteousness
15 What then? Shall we sin because we are not under the law but under grace? By no means! 16 Don’t you know that when you offer yourselves to someone as obedient slaves, you are slaves of the one you obey—whether you are slaves to sin, which leads to death, or to obedience, which leads to righteousness? 17 But thanks be to God that, though you used to be slaves to sin, you have come to obey from your heart the pattern of teaching that has now claimed your allegiance.

i am so sick now....:(

i feel horrible,
and no i'm not sick or anything.
i just feel like i did something wrong.
and the worst thing is that i can't tell anyone how i feel...
because if i say,
you would go W.T.F mirabel you did that???
or you would go around judging me or something.
i wanna cry/scream/shout it out but i CAN'T!
bloody hell...

PURE MIND IN AN R-RATED WORLD???

i dont wannna fall back to who i was in the past,
but i cant seem to stop myself.
why??

i like to show my emotions upfront, it doesnt give you the right to make use of it or does it mean im vulnerable.

It hasn't always been this way
I remember brighter days
Before the dark ones came
Stole my mind
Wrapped my soul in chains

Now I live among the dead
Fighting voices in my head
Hoping someone hears me crying in the night
And carries me away

Set me free of the chains holding me
Is anybody out there hearing me?
Set me free

this is my most slack week of my life. while everyone is going for open house and doing their JAE, i on the other hand have nothing to do.
just slacking,sleeping in, going beach, play pool.

sometimes i think im toop laidback for a competitive driven society much less JC...
i really need to stop being a sloth!!!

Jealously rips the joy out of everything.

You dont have to be perfect or the best to be a leader.
You just have to bring out the best in people,
and that makes you a great leader...

2 years i will wait...