sometimes i wish i never did tell u how i felt.
how stupid to regret.
stay strong bel, another 6 more months and u never have to see 'them' again...

Chinese O's im traumatise by it...
i really wanna pass:(

Meridian JC lah.

But if you like, MJC can be mangkali jc, majesty' jc, Majulah jc, Merlion JC also

can lah.

By the way, my primary school is Pulau Ubin Primary School, my secondary school is Pulau Tekong Secondary School, my junior college is Sentosa Junior College and my university is Merlion University and my professor is Professor Sang Nila Utama.

oh man this guy is super funny!!!
haha
i was checking out which jc i should try out for mjc or sajc and i came across this.
super funny!

anyway
i love sajc because:
1)nearer
2)uniform
3)sporty boys who play rugby:)
4)retain rate lower than mjc
5)christian school
6)their dance is better than meridian

i love mjc because:
1)more distinctions in their subjects as compared to sajc
2)value added school
3)their a young school but cca is not too bad either
4)their not like nyjc with crazy chinese speaking ppl.:)

also, im in love with acjc as well because:
1)their sports = fantastic!
2)hot boys>??? not so sure, ha
3)humanities elective programme!
4)their COP is comparable to AJC which is known to be a not bad school

however, they have 3 bad points too sad to say:
1)dont focus on their aesthetics cca like dance
2)rich kids school
3)too far from my home.

oh wells, im considering other jcs too other than these few like:
cjc(love the dance and ccas there, hate their pe curriculum )
nyjc(good in volleyball but mostly chinese speaking ppl and not so sure they do well in GP)
rjc(i dont even wanna think of their school. ha too hard to get in unless i use dsa but what are the chances? 0.000000001%?)
srjc(not too bad either, good in dance, 15mins walk from home...)
tjc/vjc(just considering these 2 schools but i doubt i will be able to survive there as well. i prefer vjc more though. vjc is a cool jc!:))

the other jcs i dont like or its too far so left these few.

perhaps poly is my calling?(i love the design and humanities courses offered. maybe i should join my sister in business course? but i also want something related to the arts, the theatre... theatre studies???? is there such course? so confuse)
or sota or nafa?(hard life and there is no turning back once i set my foot on these schools)
overseas education that major in dance and studies as well???(no money no talk:()

KATHRYN DANCING ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!
SHE'S AWESOME!!!
HER DANCING IS INDESCIRABLE!!!

im learning her solo for my dsa...
praying hard the jcs/dance schools would give me a second chance and not regect my application immediately when they see my horrifying results:/

Oh God, only you know whats best for me.
you are the one who decides my path.
so please tell me, where do u wanna me to go?

im still not sure whether to drop chemistry or continue with pure science or combined science...
i seriously dislike chemistry and i love physics!
im weird...

sigh my results,
ha well it sucks.
L1R5: 27=GG
will there be a miracle in my results lord?
i wanna make a change!!!!!!!!
but its so hard.:(

this would probably be my last few post as im gonna disconnect my computer by june to copncentrate on Olevel.

i freaking hate Olevel!
because of Olevel, i cant partcipate in YOG as a performer!!!!!
hate O's!!!!!
argh!!!

prelim now...
well i give one word to describe it, TERRIBLE!!!
eng was ok
chinese left oral and LC. surprisingly this are 2 papers that i can fail. weird.
emath was ok. praying for a2
amath left p2. i hope ppr2 is easy. but i doubt it. pass i will be very happy already.
chem hahaha screwed!!! blame myself for poor foundation and not working hard to build my foundation up. left mcq
phy! OMG this is my most disappointing paper i took!!! i know i can pass cos i did study for it, but somehow maybe it was the flu. cos my brain to not think straight, so i cant do quite a number of easy question:( i was really hoping to get a b for phy. but now? i just hope to pass la. worst thing is, no one understand how much this exam meant to me. DSA!!! helo, if i don't do well. how to apply to SAJC? they wont freaking accept me lor! sian. and there goes some of my insensitive friends to rub on my wound by saying the ppr was easy. i mean, cant u tell i was upset?! and yet u laugh at my face when u found out all my stupid mistake. pls la! be sensitive can!!! yes, i know u may think i didn't work hard that's why you don't need to say something encouraging to me. but i changed my perspective towards phy already k. i DO WORK HARD FOR IT! k maybe i didn't do some of mr S hw but how would u know i don't do my own revision? u can encourage others but u couldn't care less about me. i don't expect u to be there for me every time, but at the very least, don't say a word if u don't know how to say nice things can.... I'm freaking angry now.argh! everyone needs encouragement now and then. when i was there for u, were u there for me? i feel our friendship pulling apart. i always feel its because I'm not smart enough that's why u don't want stay near me. and when i do do well in certain things, all u say is " why is my name not call out" or "hmmm okok la. its still not good" sigh...

i wanna be like some of my classmates. not because they are very smart but i want to be like those who have alot of commitment other than studies but still do ok because of hard work. yes, hard work is not in my vocabulary. and yes, i know i should really work hard. yes,i will. because i want to go a local uni so my parents can spend lesser on my education. i wanna make them proud. i wanna prove to the ppl who look down on me wrong. i wanna do God proud.

I'm sorry God, for my imperfections. but i will make the best out of my imperfections.