one day,
this will be my testimony to share to others
that you are the strength whenever i am weak
for your ways are much higher than our ways,
and your thoughts are much higher than our thoughts
therefore i have only 1 task to do in this world
it is to TRUST and OBEY ur plans!

a skit that the drama students were performing about resilence today...



this is the song they used: can anybody hear her by casting crowns

fighting back all the tears
walking to the cross
and i broke down to cry out for ur help Lord
cried for days, cried for weeks,cried for months!
i did everything that i could...
so WHERE ARE YOU GOD?!

i hate it when:
sch is killing me. even when i tried, i still fail

perhaps im over sensitive or maybe just jealous. but i feel so useless and left out at times. then i rmb that u said, "slaves, serve ur masters with all ur heart. as if u were serving me."

from friends to stranger...

didnt do my part to be a gd testimony instead i would go against my value

my prayers felt like it landed on death ears. day by day, it is getting worse

i dont have the ability to fight the temptation

people judge me from my looks. they make me feel so vunerable and inferior.

little things knock me down so easily that i get burned out fast

everyday feels like a battle. whether is it to gain approval from peers or teachers or to be the top just to outshine others.

all of us are trapped in a lie that studies,looks(marialistic stuff) are the only way to be known by others. our performance is always being judge to see how much our self-worth is.

why me?! why me out of everyone else. u said u wont give us more than we can bear. but ur trials are so hard to overcome that it steals everything that i had and took it away from me. my confidence, the joy, my identity... i dont know anyone who knows the pain that i am going through.

all in all, i jus feel like i am fighting this war alone against this cruel, selfish, satanic world!

Oh abba father, take it away!

im trying. i really am...
in fact i am trying alot harder then last term
and i feel alot less stress compared to last term.
so why am i not improving???

eng: didnt mange to complete but was rather ok
chin: no need to say much, last page blank lol
phy: not too bad but still not confident of passing
chem: lets just say i blank out and really dont know how to do. lesson learnt, dont sleep late to study...
ss: quite good. wow my first good lol
geo: not too bad can pass

not too mention the countless of test i had before the COMMON TEST and i would say most SUCK like hell......

count down to end of papers!!!
emath, amath and hist
till then byebye:)

i had my breakthrough after so long!!!
oh the feeling is so wonderful!:)
thanks to those who have given me so many advice and encouragement.
i am recommiting to him
giving him my life as an offering
trading him my pain, worries, stress, problems, decision making and everything to be used for his glory.
giving him all my talent as well as weakness
letting him be my basic of identity so i should never ever feel inferior to others.
serving him with a servantheart and setting an example for others to follow.
to respect all authority no matter what they do just like how jesus did.
to never give up as he never gave up on me and to be self motivated not letting anything around me to affect myself.
Amen!!!
my pledge to God:)

let me introduce to u sec 3E3 life!:)
common scene in E3...
victims of E3'Sians stress.


this often happen during Phy or Mrs C lessons


the mugger attitude everywhere


TEAMWORK NOT! in E3, u r fighting the war alone! all class project? leave to IC do.


u know the game dodge ball, well some people like "IVY BESTFRIEND" practically avoid all the balls at all cost whether is it bball, vball......



good looking VS not so good looking... we have a fair share in our class:)

~thats all for now folks~

jus woke up from my long nap! awesome:)
this is the life of a E3 where u are so damn tired from all the studying that when there free time, we sleep.

oh phy test was fun! u know why??? becos the whole paper is blank!
yay me!
not that i dont wanna do but i see no point in studying physics.
Mr SAHARA DESERT totally destroy my love for physics mr teh put in me.:(
MR SHAHRA DESERT IS A MUDERER! HE MURDER PEOPLE'S INTEREST!!!
lame...

anyway, im thinking on how to make my CCA testimonial look good.
to me, its not enough. yes i know that all u need to do is get 21points and above to have 2 bonus point but CCA testimonial is the only thing that interest me to like school nowsdays. AND its fun!:)
things to improve:
more leadership... yuck i hate mrs C!(inside story)
more camps
holding on a tiny hope for overseas sch trips(pls let us travel overseas, it is our last year!)
more competition for dance or outside sch performance
take part in chingay or NDP next year if can.( i want! so fun!:))
take part in school CC. (oh i seriously hope that i would stop injuring myself so that i can run and not do those stupid duty. hah!)
and lastly more CIP hours!=D (no point for me to do since i hit maximum already but CIP is damn fun pls)

ok this post is all nonsense. nvrmind.

im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry!
IM AM REALLY SORRY...