fighting back all the tears
walking to the cross
and i broke down to cry out for ur help Lord
cried for days, cried for weeks,cried for months!
i did everything that i could...
so WHERE ARE YOU GOD?!

i hate it when:
sch is killing me. even when i tried, i still fail

perhaps im over sensitive or maybe just jealous. but i feel so useless and left out at times. then i rmb that u said, "slaves, serve ur masters with all ur heart. as if u were serving me."

from friends to stranger...

didnt do my part to be a gd testimony instead i would go against my value

my prayers felt like it landed on death ears. day by day, it is getting worse

i dont have the ability to fight the temptation

people judge me from my looks. they make me feel so vunerable and inferior.

little things knock me down so easily that i get burned out fast

everyday feels like a battle. whether is it to gain approval from peers or teachers or to be the top just to outshine others.

all of us are trapped in a lie that studies,looks(marialistic stuff) are the only way to be known by others. our performance is always being judge to see how much our self-worth is.

why me?! why me out of everyone else. u said u wont give us more than we can bear. but ur trials are so hard to overcome that it steals everything that i had and took it away from me. my confidence, the joy, my identity... i dont know anyone who knows the pain that i am going through.

all in all, i jus feel like i am fighting this war alone against this cruel, selfish, satanic world!

Oh abba father, take it away!