my fever is down now(due to bubble tea)
but i still have flu and sore throat, plus i feel like vommiting.
is this normal?

its 6:15pm, monday, 27 apr 009
and i have a fever with a temperature oh 38.3degrees.
with the exams starting in 37.45hr time.
plus piles of homework and other stupid stuff waiting for me to do and hand it in by tomorrow.
Great!.......... Oh God, please stay by me and pull me through this period of 'hardship'.
OH DADDY, i really wish to go to OBS, but i have to score well this term which is a little hard to reach right now. please send your AP(holy spirit) to help me.

A little good news for me: I do not need to see VP any time soon.:) she said:" this will be the LAST time i see you for the TIME-BEING because i am still not confident that you attire is proper. so from now until the exams are over, you need not come to school BEFORE 7.15am to see me." yay for me!!!!!!!!:):):) so happy...
the first time i did not hear her say to me "i will see you tomorrow" or she say "i will see you after exams on______(date).

i need to fight that temptation,God give me the willpower and self-control. I shall not lose this battle to satan.

i can't seem to get myself to sit down and study. irritating...
i miss alot of things now

1)miss the times we would go out and study together


2)the many dance practices we had before SYF


3)the amazing experience i learnt and made friends with in Cambodia


4)misses 2e1


5)the times we actually ate lunch together with EVERYONE around


6)the times we spent together talking about anything


7)lastly, meeting you but i don't even have a photo with you:(

Oh God! i dont want to see VP anymore! i dont want be MK biggest fan! i dream of her every second. pls Lord, let tmr be the last...:(:(

exams are coming in 5days time. but, as always i still slacking. God pls help me find the drive and motivation to continue Lord.

on a high note, my 2.4km was gd(in my opinion) for the first time. 16.09mins. thank God for giving me willpower becos i dont have much stamina. the run felt like i was reaching for God glory(which is the finishing line)i'm running after him:)

SYF, it is confirmed that we got bronze. i cant continue blaming myself for a bronze but i know everyone gave their best and thats all that matters. after all, like what the teachers says, bronze or silver it is the process and hardwork put in that counts. the award is just a way the recognise the effort and thats all that matters.

Running After You - Planet Shakers
Your Word is a light unto my path
Your Love guides me through my darkest night
And even though sometimes Your ways
I cannot understand
I’ll never walk away because my future’s
In Your hands

I don’t care what people will say
I’m running after You
I won’t turn back and go their way
Coz I’m running after You
Yeah I’m running after You
I’m running after You
(I will run to You)

I don’t care what people will say
I’m running after You
I won’t turn back and go their way
Coz I’m running after You
Don’t matter what may come my way
I’m running after you
It’s You I’m following today
I’m running after You

I’m running after You

I ENJOYED THIS YEAR SPORTSDAY TO THE MAX!!!! so fun:):):)
i got the run(didn't win, but its okay) and eagle won the workout. the feeling of standing on the first position and getting the trophy was extremely satisfying like all the hard work put in to choreograph the dance and everyone putting in effort to win was great. though the trophy had to be taken back, but i have photos with it. lol. i miss the feeling of winning trophies... oh but the trophy is gonna spoil like any moment.

i hate VP alot now. i find her very unreasonable. giving me detention for my attire not 'passing' but it did pass lor. i bet Mr Ong would pass my attire lor. furthermore, she specially came to find me and say that my attire is improper. like fuck lar. her high waist skirt also does not touch the 'line' on the knee lor. stupid!!!! i still have to see her tmr. hope i pass tmr..........chances are, she will catch my over and over again until i leave peirce.lol

I Killed the dance and cried! Oh God, why does it have to be me?

i want to share something that i thought was very encouraging from Keith blog post. thank you for letting the holy spirit work through you to help others in their struggles...p.s. i cannot copy and paste so i type out ALL the words

i realised that in this fallen world it is hard to keep our bodies and thoughts pure. with media using sex to sell their products, everywhere we turn, we can see posters, magazines covers, pictures and girls dressing sexily.

i learnt that our bodies should be a holy temple of God. Our sins are already paid by Jesus on the cross. Now i no longer live for myself, but Christ now live in me. So we have to honour God by breaking free from the hold of flesh, addictions and sins.

My body is neutral but it is my natural desire that makes me use it in negative ways.
Jesus was fully flesh when he came to earth, but he never gave in to his natural desires through relying on the holy spirit. in this fallen world, we must rely on the holy spirit instead of the temporary satisfaction of the flesh. When we indulge ourselves in sensual pleasures of the world, it will cause us to desire more worldly pleasure.

it is only the holy spirit that can change me and in order to do this, the holy spirit has to be giving the control over my body. my body was bought by Jesus' life and as a person redeemed by Christ, i am under the authority of the kings of kings. i have to learn to live a life lead by the holy spirit and rely on him. it may be hard in this world, but i can do everything in Christ who strengthens me.

we may face many troubles in this fallen world, but all we have to do is TRUST and RELY in him, so we may say in confidence that we are NOT affected by the many obstacles that lies ahead of us because we have CHIRST to help us. Yes, God will help me so i will trust in you and your plans always.

For I know what I have planned for you,’ says the Lord. 1 ‘I have plans to prosper you, not to harm you. I have plans to give you 2 a future filled with hope. 3
jeremiah29:11