oh Lord!
it hurts when he says lets not contact anymore. we have nothing in common.
it hurts because i am unable to walk out of this relationship even when he already walked out.
it hurts that i am willing to do stupid things for him but in the end gave him empty hope when i say no!
it hurts when i can't give it up. i am crumbing under this temptation.
it hurts when i find no guilt in stealing, instead i find it fun.
it hurts when i have thoughts of smoking and cutting myself again just to punish myself for not being able to control my temptation.
it hurts when i pursue many things that are visible now but not eternal.
it hurts when i am unable to take comments for others not personally.
it hurts when i focus so much on my problems and never realise that this world does not revolve around me.
it hurts when i am unable to be the best testimonial of how a chrstian should be like.
it hurts when i purposely anger my parents just to defend my points.
it hurts when i said things that i did not mean in a very vulgar manner.

it hurts man, it really hurts. but i know it hurts god more than it hurts me. why? because i know god is there grieving for my sins rather than punishing me for all that i have done..... all i can say is sorry God and thank you for loving me the way i am and i hope you can help me overcome!

With God, everything is possible!