I HATE IT WHEN PARENTS READ YOUR BLOG!!!!!!!!!! pls lar, some post are not meant to be taken seriously lor. for this, you decide bah....

somehow i feel i am losing my drive for everything again.
so many test,SYF,exams,and many more other things are all around the corner.

i really dislike going for history lesson already. i cant stand that teachers are always being bias but i dont hate the subject. she wants to make me score bad just to make her favourite student score better so be it. i dont give a damn about it anymore. Actually, i dont give a damn to anything anymore. i freakingly hate chinese, physics, chem, hist(becos of teacher). useless subjects, no idea why i took them in the first place.

sometimes, i really want to go back to the way i was before... the more emo one
i feel like going back to cutting to relieve my stress and to make myself more 'alive'
i had thoughts of suicide again, and taking steriods to boost my performance for SYF and sportscarnival since they dont check(i know its stupid, but hey i have my freedom of thoughts too)

i seriously have no life: mon geo test, dance
tue:chem test, phy test, amath test
wed:SYF
fri:sportscarnival

OH GOD!!!! this is seriously killer lar. dont know how im gonna survive this.

i cant get you off my thoughts... cant stop thinking of you...