for once, she is not bias in her marking
oh SYF!!!! 2days of countdown.:(
somebody said, if u are not invited to something, that means they don't want us there so my as well forget about it.(i should learn to accept this fact then)
Caroline and ivy said i should go for counselling well i ask them first lah. then they both said a immediate YES! LOL, maybe i should...reasons: if u know means u know if u wanna know, ask me(though, i doubt anyone would want to know)
yippee chem test postpone to 21/4! jump for joy
Fri is sports day, hoping to win a trophy:) pray hard pray hard...4by100m.

I HATE IT WHEN PARENTS READ YOUR BLOG!!!!!!!!!! pls lar, some post are not meant to be taken seriously lor. for this, you decide bah....

somehow i feel i am losing my drive for everything again.
so many test,SYF,exams,and many more other things are all around the corner.

i really dislike going for history lesson already. i cant stand that teachers are always being bias but i dont hate the subject. she wants to make me score bad just to make her favourite student score better so be it. i dont give a damn about it anymore. Actually, i dont give a damn to anything anymore. i freakingly hate chinese, physics, chem, hist(becos of teacher). useless subjects, no idea why i took them in the first place.

sometimes, i really want to go back to the way i was before... the more emo one
i feel like going back to cutting to relieve my stress and to make myself more 'alive'
i had thoughts of suicide again, and taking steriods to boost my performance for SYF and sportscarnival since they dont check(i know its stupid, but hey i have my freedom of thoughts too)

i seriously have no life: mon geo test, dance
tue:chem test, phy test, amath test
wed:SYF
fri:sportscarnival

OH GOD!!!! this is seriously killer lar. dont know how im gonna survive this.

i cant get you off my thoughts... cant stop thinking of you...

I HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING YOU!
scars.......

isnt this beautiful?

good friday today,
that heart tells us of god unfailing love.
fasted today, didnt know that when i skip my meal, my stomach would just dont bother growling and i wont feel hungry anymore.lol. jj says my stomach is screwed up already. hahas

Oh God, help me! I'm stressing out and thus causing me to drop loss. :( hope its temporally.
1)SYF: seriously i never felt so stress out because of SYF before. I'm stress because i don't think my ankle will recover in time for SYF and i still have to perform. i really want to perform but thoughts that i will ankle will halfway give up on me really scares me. nevertheless, even if my ankle doesn't recover in time i will still give my 150%. If we don't get our Silver, I HAVE ONLY MYSELF OT BLAME. i would feel that its my fault that the dance group loses its silver. i will definitely cry:(. see why I'm stressing out....

2)Sports carnival: i really wonder why must Mdm Foong put me in charge of Peirce workout. never like it before, won't like it now and definitely not in the future...
its so boring! i mean NO ONE will look so whats the point? plus, i have to think of the choreography in less than a week, teach the 'workout-ers', and there's really no time. i really wish there is more than 24hours a day. i slept like 3 to 5 hours everyday and i still haven finish the task that are suppose to me done. 17 April, i also want to run the 4by100m but the dreams seems like its fading as the date is nearing but my leg is not healing. ohhh, it rhymes...lol

3)Im dropping hair!!!!! like 20 to 30 plus strangs everytime i comb my hair. sigh, see stress is causing me to lose hair. even the doctor says so. hope its temporary then. Oh the doctor said that my ankle is a strain not sprain. so yea i didnt break any bone or tear any muscles. that good.

4)NAPFA: I dont have to go for NAPFA yet cos dance priority comes first and Mdm Foong specifically said 'rest you leg!!!'. xp i think that the only good thing. but that means chances for going to OBS is lesser. and yes i WANT to go OBS! hope i get chosen since only 15 are allowed to go.:(

5)Bali students: im going out with them later to marina barrage, national museum and blah blah blah... i LOVE my buddy! shes so nice and very open so its easy to converse with her. wondering what present to give her.

6)Exams: arghhhh,it like so soon??? we just had our holiday and in 3 more weeks time is our exam. im scaredddddddd! i must do well for everything in order to go OBS. but passing chinese i gonna be a BIG PROBLEM! since i failed every test.
oh and they extended sec 3 curriculum during the holidays, like HELL! my birthday still have to go school. curses....

im finally trying to let go... not easy but its worth it.
P.s. STRESS IS KILLING ME that i want to cut my wrist

letting go.... why is it so hard?

hmmm, my mum asked me whether i want to drop to B Chinese. Honestly, it sounds good to me but i like the class i am in now with most of the 2e1 in it. should I or should i not???

it feels like I'm having dance practices everyday. oh, an interesting accident, i sprain my ankles.*clap hands*LOL. my 3 time already. lets just say I'm accident pron. and another thing, i have less than 14 practices for my ankle to heal because SYF is no 15 April. Awesome...

Oh God, why did i have to take physics instead of biology. P.S. i like dissecting!!!=DDD And i regret not taking MEP(music elective programme) as my 9 sub though i think i will kill myself from all that stress.

i miss 6i alot too. especially the guys. met some of them and they became really sweet, caring, nice... i know it sounds abit weird but its true...

march holiday is the time to do:
1)overdue homework from term 1
2)e-learning/march holiday
3)sleep late, wake up late
4)slack, watch tv, computer, eat, slack and the cycle goes on...
5)might be getting another piercing again=D

last 2 weeks of term 1.yay!
LOL, i know i am random. but i seriously need a break from school, like seriously man.
decided not to go for CSSP camp cos i had other commitments.
dance is making my leg hurt again:(
Cross-country is coming soon and im not going to run.both:) & :(
i must go House Practice! cannot skip again.
E-learning on wednesday means no need to go school:) BUT have dance
i got drenched becos of BENEDICT!!! however, the beautiful rainbow made everything seems nice again.
i miss alot of people:you know who u are, no need for me to say.
i hate going sunday school but i think it is ending. hope it ends soon so i do not need to come up with excuses not to go:x
praying that i can do a good job as a church yuoth welfare, organising stuff and all...
i need to do ALL my maths due homework by this thursday.:(