the crush are dying away,
is that a good thing?
i think so.
but ivy says i might revert to my 'old ways'
hmmm, i rather not crush on anyone anymore.
feels like crushes are always one-sided.
leads to nothing at all even if i wish it could be more.
gets my hope too high
that when i fall into reality
hearts are being broken.

cell was fun today.
made me really reflect.
ALOT.
words.
our tongue can build ppl up with our words,
yet with the same tongue we curse and swear.
how can we praise and the same time curse?
it is not right...
its like contradicting ourselves.
the troubling thing is,
no matter how hard u try,
watever u say would be remembered for life by the person
be it a hurtful remark or a negative remark.
as much as u try to forget it,
it just stays in our head.
no matter how much u do to amend for ur mistakes,
it doesnt really change anything.
thats where the saying," whats done is done"
yea, we can say sorry and forgive the person.
but thats all we can do.
so important to do:
tame ur tongue:)

to all ppl who i had hurt before,
pls forgive me.
really am sorry if i said somthing nasty...

to someone: thank you:) u did something to make my day. and im really sorry. i dont know how many apologises i had already said to u, but i just cant get rid of the guilt in me. i feel i owe u big time. also knowing the fact that ur friends told u to do something to me, yet u being so nice didnt take any action. just make me feel like a witch.ha. i accepted u out of so many wrong reasons, and decided to leave it becos it was so selfish. maybe u can say its like making up for a mistake i commited. still, the scar is there. only time can heal it. and its really too bad for me, that i didnt appreciate u in the first place. wasting both urs and my time. now that i starting to fall for u, its kidda too late? feels like god is punishing me for my mistake. oh wells... and i have not got over u... thats bad. nevermind. go and enjoy urself with ur friends especially someone. i dont really want to care abnout it anymore. just 1 thing, some hurting me by doing something(u know wat) if u say u haven got over me yet. u by doing that, jus makes me feel that u are trying to annoy me. totally not funny... LOL

Aaron, Ben, Remus, Pete TALK TO ME!!!!! IM TOTALLY BORED HERE. ENTERTAIN ME ESPECIALLY AARON AW! HAHAH! MISSING U GUYS....:(