never thought i fear death so much.
my actions was so stupid.
wasnt thinking straight.
totally scarred myself, not a good way.
hopefully those scars would heal.

at times i feel like giving up.
it seems easier to sit back and let fear and pain and rejection and wat nots to overwhelm me.
but what good would it do?

u did the right thing.
so thankful that u understood how i felt.
the fact is:
it hurts when we talk
i still love u
i still miss u
i have not got over u 1 bit
...

shall go on a hiatus for 2weeks
hopfully it helps.

hensey u are such an idiot!
why did i care about the friendship with u??
im such a fool.
ur no longer worth my time.
my loss not mine.
i hate u!