these wounds wont seem to heal, this pain is just to real. there is just too much that tie cannot erase...

what the F am i doing???!!!
why do i even add Hen back!
stupid stupid stupid!!!
sigh.
i should never had talked to has.
made me wanna cry again.
but i feel happy for u now.
cos u moved on.
and u finally accepted my apology or at least thats what i believed.
and thats what i choose to believe.
i feel a slight freedom from this guilt i had when u said i forgive u.
i would definitely choose to remember those happy moments.
ur like a rainbow faded in an twinkle of an eye, gone too soon.

for me,
i fall everytime i stand.
i take 1 step forward and slide 3steps back.
it only seems to get harder and harder every time i try.
perhaps im trying just too hard like what peter said.
i really need God right now.
to ask him to give me patience to let time heal.
he is the only one that can help me now.

i still hold on to this hope.
no matter what happens, no matter how long i have to wait.
i still believe and choose to believe that we can be back to talking terms again.
it may be hard but it is not impossible.
6months,1year,2years,5years, i dont mind the wait.
u may be mean to me by stating ur stand clear u do not want to be friends with me,
but that would not stop me for pinning on this hope.
there is something in me that have faith things will change.
i know it takes 2 hands to clap.
but my hand is always there and always will be there.
waiting for u.

i knew it would end.
i just didnt know it would end so badly and hurt so badly:(

NEVER WILL I EVER AGAIN GIVE MY HEART AWAY